one of those days where i really fucking need someone's shoulder to cry on while they embrace me and make me feel like everything will be fine, but i have nobody, and i dont deserve anybody
instead what i have is this annoying voice in my head thats telling me off for crying and feeling bad, like a reminder that i am being pathetic and useless. that i should feel bad for feeling bad, and im sorry for not being strong and perfect

the best interactions ive had recently have been just anonymously sharing music with transient internet strangers

overshared again and felt guilty about it again award. thats the whole point for why i started this diary, so fucking use it
learn to talk about something more interesting than yourself (should be incredibly easy)
this is why my ass is relegated to being a passive observer in every situation, because when i start involving myself its only a matter of time until i embarass myself